Tick Tock

Yes, I am rather aware that this particular title is somewhat odd, yet I think you all get the picture…

Why is it, that it always seems that time is running out?

I personally, am frustrated beyond belief because of a particular situation dealing with me running out of time. Folks, I have just been handed the opportunity of a life time. One of my deepest passions in life is computers. I am a dedicated computer engineering student, practicing my skills on the internet rather study for my upcoming examinations. I love nothing more than to immerse myself into a piece of code…and I have been given the chance of a lifetime to pursue my passion.

That’s right; I have been studying at a prestigious college of the country in a picturesque town Now, I say town for a reason. I live in a city, yet it’s not exactly one of the most well-known spots on the map, and preserves a small town feel. So, as I can assume you know, this is a huge chance for me to get my name out there…yet I am still being held back.

I am currently experiencing some scheduling difficulties at my studies. It’s not like I don’t know whats written in black and white, I just tend to ignore the fact it’s quite essential to read in order to acquire knowledge. I just don’t know where it’s all headed.

Now I know that most of you who are reading this right now may be pondering as to why I am not just running with this chance. Yet, I am a responsible man and I do not want to seem ungrateful towards my awesome family and friends who has been so supportive of me. I just wish to look them in the eye and say ‘Yes, I know what I’m doing’.

*Sigh* Simply, I am overwhelmed. I am grasping at receiving an answer! My time is running thin! Yet, I am trapped where I am watching the time go by…

So tell me readers. Have any of you ever felt that your chances are hanging in the monotonous balance of schedules and others in your life?

Please share your thoughts with me. Maybe you’ll ignite some inspiration for me and my own situation, or who knows. Another post perhaps?

Please let me know what you’re thinking!

Did you feel that?

It was time I took to a positive approach to my life, needless to say my previous posts hasn’t been all so honky-dory. So after procrastinating for the past couple of days, the decision to resume the act of getting into shape is now official.

Why? I mean are you asking as to why working out is the only ‘positive’ thing? Aren’t there any other versions to being optimistic? I mean sure, there is, many a people like to go out, party, read inspirational texts, turn to the almighty (just so you know, presently I’m an atheist), etc.

Now, before I drift to a world entirely inhabited by my imagination wouldn’t it be lovely if we ought to resume the story here? So, as the day had just begun for me (mid-afternoon)  I had a very pleasant conversation with myself.

Sub-conscious mind: Dude, get your lazy bum up man!!

Conscious mind: Yeah, right..hold onto your horses..I need to snuggle a bit here.

Sub-conscious mind: I’m going to give you a very lame migraine if you choose not to!

Conscious mind: Ok, Ok I’m up….

Talk about calling truce!

Now wide awake I tried looking through some of my books, guarded with crumbled layer of dusty particles joyfully  resisting gusts of wind.  Thus, I resorted to brute force.  With no evil deed going unpunished I  dusted and coughed (they are like Siamese twins) and uncovered something that I’d long forgotten. It was my ‘diet diary’. Freaky right? So I thought until I started reading to realize the degree of passion, motivation and hard-work that went into dropping those extra unwanted pounds of flesh – for a moment reminded me of  Shakespeare’s Merchant of Venice.

It sometimes help to be taken back in time, when once again you can picture yourself taking those hard decisions, and living by them not knowing what awaits you in the future, but still holding strong. Then I realized I’ll have to hit my gym once again.

It’s not like the only and sole reason for hitting gym is to get into shape, it’s just a very pleasant side-effect. Truth be told, here I can push myself against myself! Sounds strange right? Yes it sure does until you know what I mean. Getting those last reps going when your body seems to give way –it’s your spirit, your willingness not to quit, to go that extra mile, to be optimistic and reminding yourself time and again deep within your thoughts –‘yes you can do it’.

Wow! seems like I’m a bit emotional now.But you know, it does feel good to see yourself in the mirror and hoping if you can keep to the regime (which I seem to find very hard) someday you shall witness, how good it feels to stand again after you take that great fall (didn’t you feel that today?).